peace

Life is never quite what we envision it to be. We spend our days wondering when we'll finally 'get there'. We think that we'll be happy if only this one thing could happen or change. In my mind I envision us on our own farm. A place that is ours. Where we can do what we want, grow what we want, have the kind of business we want, make the messes we want and make the home that we want. We've moved around so much that we've ached for a place to make our own.

I think we often spend so much time thinking ahead that we don't slow down and see what's right in front of us. The other day, I found myself outside planting our window boxes. I was fixing up our back patio, listening to music and sipping iced tea with mint from our garden. I peeked around the corner to see Nate sitting with Zander as he blissfully played and splashed in the stream. I stood there watching them for a minute. A wave of peace washed over me as it hit me. . . We're here. For the first time in years, we're in a situation where we're not under enormous pressure. The way we used to farm, we didn't have the time or energy for anything else but work and time just flew by. Now, we work but have the time to play and enjoy each other. We have a place to fix up and make ours, even if it's only temporary. Our time will come when we have a place of our own and with it will come the work, stress and pressure of maintaining it and making a living from it.

But for now, we're here. And it's home. I couldn't ask for anything more.